Ive been going to psychiatrists and therapists for over 20 years, each of the long list of them immediately consider me either bipolar, depressive,or with mood disorder.
A month into studying me they realize i am none of the above,yet Rx me SSRIs ,stabilizers,lithium,and antidepressants with antisiezure meds....all make me attempt suicide after a few weeks.
I keep telling them to skip the med phases and LISTEN to me, but they never do.
Im allergic to boredom.a 15minute car ride is enough to trigger a narcoleptic fashion brain sieze, but rather than sleep,my frontal lobes explode into overdrive,i struggle to find happy thoughts or exciting hopes in order to keep from getting tired as i know im about to fall into exhaustive depression like symptoms that will lead to me trying to kill me. When stimulated out of this by good news,friends visiting, physical exercise, 300mg of caffien,100mg ephedrine, or fast rides on my murdercycle,i am fine.
One psych Rx'd me Provigil so i could take a safe med during a seizure, however,because my sleep study results didnt diagnose me as narcoleptic, my insurance wont pay, and a month of Provigil is over $500. I cant afford it.
Stimulants work for sure....but id rather find the neurological CAUSE than supplement the symptoms. Would anyone be able to help me with my situation?